Thursday, October 19, 2006
life is not fair~ i never thought that that phrase is ever true until today.... it is so not fair can~ why am i the only one going through this out of the 3 of us la? sorry shan sorry ko but imma do a lot of comparison la.... i am never someone who likes to compare? wad ever comes comes.. but.... i really... this is really not fair??
i am not the one who failed the same catagory of stuffs again n again? I failed a paper in NP and I cleared it on my 2nd try? I graduated from NP within 3 n a half year? 6 months longer instead of 12 months??
shanny has been here for a year u said.. so she can have all the help she needs... so i have been here for 7 years.. does tt mean i dont need a single help? she can take cab to school day in day out tts a way of helping here concentrate in her studies better right? she has all the tuitions day in day out tts = to her getting help from her tutor right?
so why izzit that when i need help i am not allowed to? u said i shouldnt rely on anyone? but heck i know i need help can? why are u guys expecting so much from me but yet u are not helping me at all? I ask u to teach me about english will u be able to do it? u cant then i have to rely on someone else ma? U say I never do anywork hw can~~~ I got do my work can?
i really dunno wad else u all want from me la... wad ever i have i give to u liao.. nothing left...
*and this is something i never felt before... never had all these suicidal thoughts.. now i do... seriously.. I am being pushed to my limit... i cannot take it le.. i really cannot take it le... why wont u allow anyone to help me.. i need help~~ i really do... even when i'm crying here.. do u even care? do u even come out to comfort me the way u do to shanny? koko called asked for encouragement u encourage him... wad do u do about me? why are u chucking me to one side when i am in need? so whats wrong if i go to someone else? i am not.. born in this world to survive on my own.. i cant*
she told
the story ...
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