Midnight Silhouette

Sunday, July 16, 2006

after having my brain fried yesterdae... or maybe this morning.. its getting fried again today.... i dunno why.. n i wonder why... but i've been.... very tired for the past few daes... after my grandma got into the hospital la... so stressed...nw... even tho i just came back from a family dinner.... had some fun n yada yada yada... i felt joy when i was there.... i come back home.. the pressure is back n that mountains of load is back on my shoulder... sometimes i really wish i can get knocked down by some car n get to hell for it.. i dunno how's life'slike in hell but i really am super duper tired la.... i sound like some dying woman.. lOL! but seriously.. this is the first time i ever feel helpless... and... how should i say it.. hopeless? i really... dont feel a thing already la sth like tt... its just.. so tiring!!!

and this is also the first time i ever regret failing immunology.. why? coz i no longer have friends to fall back on... mayb i took yan jun they all forgranted.. coz anywae they alwaes know wad have to be done and WILL do it when its asked of them.. now? i just felt like... i am the extra for trying so hard la k? u know tt kind of feeling like.. shit. why am i being like this? i should take a breather n have it easy.. BUT I CANt!!! not with these people la.. mayb i took it too easy when i had them around... tts why i could fail tt module.. regret loh really... seriously regret... dunno how can!!!!!

she told the story ... 23:40