Midnight Silhouette

Saturday, April 29, 2006

haiyoya... if i could just take my own life... i probably would've done it... too abd i dont have the courage... but... i'm seriously feel soooo driven up on the wall.. everything is like squashing me...

i dont know how the heck i can tell u guys this but... it is impossible for me to choose between the 2 of u!!!! haix! another day.. another quarrel.. fine it is my fault to be lying.... but really! there's no way i can survive without the other party!!! moooo!! sobx!!! its between a n b... b tries hard to try to please a.. but a is just too bias against b.. hence expected me to stop communicating with b! there's no way i can say tt right on b's face so i lied to a! i told a that i am not in contact with b anymore.. but which lie last forever and i was found out.. now i am being reprimanded again n its just sooo stressful! plus with b not knowing about it n expect me to find time n ignore a.. i cant!!!!

i dunno la! i will not be here without a... yet i know i exist wholy for b... but.. wth!!!! u guys expect soooo much of me... each of u only have to worry about me being with the other party.. i have to juggle my time! plus school? plus all the extras! dont u know how stressful it is!? yet! i dont want to forsake any of u! both of u is important to me and i cannot choosE! why izzit that a cannot udnerstand tt!! at least b gives in now.. but.. i dont want this loh... its for my own good u say.. but~~ but~~ i just cant bring myself to say to b right on the face tt i dont want to communicate with b already can~~ i cannot!! i simply cannot!! both of u is important to me! why cant u just co-exist!! why!!! why!!!!!!

i feel like running away somewhere far far far far far.. for all i know i'll end up leaving both if i get tt fed up.....

she told the story ... 00:44