Midnight Silhouette

Monday, July 11, 2005

today band was...... was................. okai i have no right to comment coz i din participate.. LOL! but it sure was packed man... with 100+ taiwan students.. foowah~ scareeee~~~ anywaes...

i dun understand la.. fine i know i am over reacting la perhaps.. fine i know i shouldnt be reacting this way... fine i know u just dont want me to cling to u tt much.. but... i dunno la.. sorrie for hitting u with tt tic tac.. seriously it was just a reflex tt i threw it at ur direction after u noticed I WAS AROUND and yet u didnt do anything.... yap.. i instantaneously threw tt thing.. tts how pissed i was....

i dont need u to act as if she's a stranger IN FRONT of me and when u know i am not around u go on interacting with her.. I DONT NEED U TO DO ANYTHING BEHIND MY BACK! u are burdened tt i mind u interacting with her~? then call it off la.. tell me u cant do it la.. its like... i told u u might not be able to handle the now me coz u urself knows me best... and yet u dont want to let go.. and then u go back doing this to me.. LIKE WAD IS THE POINT???? history is repeating itself again n again n again n my hurt just again n again n again got broken.. how many times did i tell u this anywae? and u still dont want to let go and yet u are doing this to me.. like~~ excuse me~!? fine i am not as pissed today as i was the previous time but seriously la.... excuse me la k? I... EXIST~!

"oh i dont care where as long as its downstairs.." HAH~! again... bull*hitting..... i feel like tearing something.. bitting something.. and i think i am going crazy over all these.... seriously... *hopz hopz hopz.. jumpz jumpz jumpz* sometimes i wonder.. why is it tt words alwaes comes out so easily from a guy's mouth and heck! sometimes they dont even mean wad they said..... its irritating!!!!! and i know its childish of me but i cant help but think.. i am nowhere anymore.. as long as he thinks i am around somewhere it'll be okai even if he's not by myside.. the thing is i went missing he didnt even know la k.. during tt break time at 4.. merrill saw me ran n called... but yea.. tt was all.. i dont think he even cares la... interacting with others is more important... serving others are more important.. ih! ih ih ih ih ih!!!

"ask if u want to know..." EXCUSE ME!!!! I ASKED!!!! DID U EVEN ANSWER ME~!? hell yea with *nothings....* AIEEEE!!!!!!!! irritating~!!!!!!!! and wads with the " u want to know ask.." guys this days.. NO INITIATIVE!!!!!! irritating!!!! ( okai dont mind me.. i am just being crazy...) I ASK! ANSWER PROPERLY LA!!! NOTHING! NOTHING! AIEEEE!!!!!!! but i meant tt.. NO INITIATIVE!!!!!

honestly.. i feel like PUNCHING a lot of guys right now and seriously.. this daes.. to me guys = trouble.. fine mayb not all.. but they are seriously making me irritated more than ever before..

she told the story ... 23:26