Midnight Silhouette

Thursday, June 30, 2005

okai~~ so... i just reached home.. wanted to stay out longer.. but my ipod doesnt allow me to do so.. stupid ipod.. even the ipod is against me.. idiot.. haha! okai la... my fault.. >< anywae~~~

went to dah NYU today... god the adelphi sure changes a lot.. i was pretty shocked when i saw it.. like of course change lah.. its been like.... wad? 6 years since i last went therE? mayb 5 n a half.. but yah.... i miss the air n all... haiz~ wanted to tell stories as we go NYU turn out i'm telling the stories to my own self.. lol! anywae.. the canteen or at least the food stall is gone!!! man! n i tot i can get a hold of the curry puff they sell.. it was nice~~ haha and the people at NYU really changes man.. like really.. i dunno anyone else other than the ladyboss.. is she like.. pregnant again? or is her belly.... oh well.. its weird.. she's like alwaes pregnant when i see her or sth.. hahax anywae.. registered for my sis first.. took a place up for her since i know when she'll be coming now... its like this sat? and my parents are coming along too.. there goes my freedom~ LOL! okai kidding.. i'm glad they came la in a way..

hahaha and i found a way to "torture" my sis.. since she's like so eager to watch the narutos n the bleaches and the fmas.. wadever anime i have.. i decide for every episode she watch.. she shall write me a summary!! muahahaha! and every comic book she read she shall do so too!!! muahahahaha! mayb i shall throw in questions so she can answer the way i want it.. like wth lah.. hahahaha!

went to funan.. walk walk walk... walk walk somemore.... walk tio sian.. next stop~ bugis!! was deciding whether i should take bus or should i just walk.... and its like the angel n devil fighting in my head...
A: come on.. u needa exercise.. lets walk..
D: no way.. u must be kidding.. hello there's a laptop on ur hand...
A: take it as a grocerry
D: and the weather's so hot too.. and its tiring.. later u'll get all sweaty..
A: u can set ur own pace.. enjoy mother nature...
D: and suck in a lot of carbon monoxides?
A: just walk!

and poof the devil lost.. LOL! ya la.. i walked from funan to bugis along the road.. sure is far man!! and oh .. its actually SIM LIM i was headed..i wanna get another iPod synchroniser.. i have no idea where mine is n i tot.. wad the heck.. i ransacked my room.. i shall just get a new one.. and i did.. the shop tts selling it ah.. or at least the person managing it.. damn asshole u know.. the price tag written.. 25.. (i got it at 18 at the exact same shop!!) i was like.. wth! they increase the price so much?? the other shops were selling like 27-30 tho.. so i decided okai fine i shall just get it.. then there was this lady keying in the item number n all la.. then she stonded there and ask the guy wads the price.. then the guy say $25.. then she points at the monitor.. i bet the monitor says $18 la k.. coz when the guy saw he went... oh i give u discount k? $20.. i was like huh? and i told him la.. i got it at 18 last time.. and he was.. oh okai.. for old customer i shall give it to u at 18.. -_-''' liar liar pants on fire! idiot......

then after that i went to bugis la.. happy and all at my accomplishment... then an idea pops up.. i am getting tired listening to my playlist cost it actually repeated already.. (50 songs since i left school..) i stop at mcd... open up my laptop take out the new synchroniser n put it in action!! like woohooo!! hahaha put in new songs.. tts why the ipod battery ran out.... hahahaz... but wad the heck i was able to enjoy more music for the time! woooo!!

walk walk at parco can be pretty boring especially when u have no sense of direction.. so angel n devil starts popping out again.. this time fighting on whether i shall go on comic spree or not.. i was still pretty unhappy la.. and this is bad.. i spend when i am pissed now.. last time was eat.. sh*t... well anywae.. Devil won! lol!! and i go about getting kindaichi 10 n 11.. tsubasa 8.. and negi magi 5... all english version ok.. that cost me a bomb! but like i said wadever!! hahaha went down to mc to get a drink~~~ walk down to sunshine plaza's side.. take bus down to city hall.. walked to esplanade.. (it rained damn it!!) and i settled down by the merlion.. hahahaz! tt was a long journey k! i tot my leg's ready to drop anytime.. hahaha! by the time i sat by the merlion.. my ipod was barely surviving... i started reading kindaichi..

finished book 10.. wanted to go on to book 11.. and there goes my stomach.. i haven eat for the day... so it goes complaining away... and wad the heck... it was drizzling again.. so i decided.. to go indoor.. and then angel n devil start quarreling again.. hahaha! should i eat in or out? hahahahax! angel won! coz i wan to experiment more on cooking veggies i shall eat at home! yah.. wad happened was i cooked up veggie for dinner last night.. it looks... scareeee but taste nice! too much salt tho.. hahaha!! but anywae it was nice! i want to eat somemore of tt.. lolz!!! so i decided to hop on da bus n go home!!! reading kindaichi 11 along the way.. ipod died as i reach my bus stop.. haix~! hahaha well when i was on my way to city hall from school.. i was thinking la.... something like a fight between A n D too but yah.. its just the pro n cons of my thoughts.. seriously...

its not like i dont want u to rest or anything la.. its just tt.. i wonder why is it tt i give in a day n that stupid sickness of urs have to be like tt.. if i'm being able to contact u mite not mind so much la.. but its like.. ever since ystrdae i heard nothing from u.. nothing at all.. i understood tt u must've been sleeping so fine.. i called also ur bro said u r resting.. i cant call ur hp.. cant see u n today also like tt.. like wad the shit la.. it was a good thing tt i ended class at 2 today k.. otherwise if i had ended at 12 n u told me u are still unwell despite sleeping for so long and doing nothing but sleep for so long.. i would've gone screaming at u or sth.. yah.. its no wonder that the doctor have no idea wads wrong with u.. coz i think its really either too tired.. or u are just faking it... mental block i call it.. wadever la..
the angels says.. c'mon he's been working his ass for u man.. is this ur way of treating him when he's sick??
the devil shot back.. yah u go there take care of him and then wad? get his bug.. then ur turn to fall sick.. will he b there for u.. or just like last time he'd go off somewhere on his own enjoying himself? u told urself u dun wanna care so much.. stick to ur word..
the angel argued.. but u gotta give him a chance right.. otherwise he'll forever be black listed when it comes down to this....
D: well leopard cant change its spot no matter wad.. he's sick.. its his own fault let him take care of himself..
A: but u know deep down u are dead worried about him.. why cant u just gulp down tt stupid ego of urs n give him a call?
D: waste of time.. he cant pick up the phone anywae.. and please.. does he even bother calling u? heck no?
A: he's resting k...
D: ya..we shall see if he even bother to call u tonite or tml.. doubt it.. he's alwaes so full of himself.. tt principal of urs where it goes "when there's a will there's a way" never works with him.. his number 1 importance is not u anymore...
A: yah wadever but u know that giving is more wonderful than taking right? why must u do this to him. he is after all only a sick man
D: he doesnt deserve the goodwill... giving is alright.. taking is a must too.. wad happened if u give n give n give and in the end u become a puppet or even maid of his?
A: come on.. u know he's not tt kind of person
D: action speaks louder than word and u know his care is somewhat depleting...
A: no.. i think he's still the same.,. u r thinking too much
D: dont waste ur time.. just go out there n enjoy urself.. dont think of him..
A: give him a call later..
D: NO! wait for him to call u! guys shld make the move....

but yah.. i know.. even on msn he's not talking anymore.. the chances of him calling me? 0.000000000000000000000000000000000001% but i still want to hold on to that 0.0000000000000000000001% i am stupid i am dumb.. but yah.. i'm this weak.. and there i was cursing at myself for expecting this n that from him.. and here i go again~ like.. i dunno la.. this is a form of hoping wad.. a form of expectation wad.. and when it doesnt happen? there goes the mood again.. i really want him to do it but hello.. like *SLAP SLAP* when will u learn tt u shld NEVER expect anything from him? be it his call be it him msg-ing u be it anything.. as long as it have link to him.. dont even hope! dont even expect! then u wouldnt feel any pain.. haiz.... i'm trying devil.. really....

she told the story ... 18:41