Midnight Silhouette

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

hmmmm~ mayb the time has come after all...lets just put it in a way that these daes.. even tho i miss my trumpet n playing it so much~ i find it tiring to go band.. i find it a BURDEN to go to band.. furthermore i find it those idiots are getting more irritating than ever before.. okai fine mayb i have my period or sth hence my mood is this bad but seriously.. i'm getting sick~ mayb its time to call it quits.. i still love my trumpet i still love the music but yea.. its dragging me n my mood down.... perhaps its becoz of some certain idiots but i really do think i shld just stop this... i want to play for wasbe tho...>< lol! but i'm sick n tired of tis!!!!! mayb its the vacuum eh? coz i haven been playing with the band for too long? then again its only like 4-5 practice? i dunno la.. its irritating me.. he's irritating me.. talk about depriving him.. am i not being deprived also by having to wait for him? sure i can play then i dont have to wait for him to finish practice but wads the point when (even tho i know they're joking but let me make an excuse out of it.. lol) they dont want me in there... and i dont really feel like switching to horn yet... it feels weird.. LOL! and horn is bursting with new members too... plus there are surely more than enough trumpeters... and obviously more than enough trombonist until jasper cannot play coz of the lack of instrument yet he has to stick around.. okai fine i'm not chasing him out of the band or wad la but why izzit tt band hold so much value in his life? lol! okai i'm asking stupid question but stimes i find myself hating that side of him.. even tho i hafta say its his tbone playing tt makes me notice him in the first place but like wadever.. his sudden commitment is irritating.. at times he'll just ignore all the rules.. and he alwaes do tt when i am INTO band... then when i'm not INTO band.. heck he just HAVE TO FOLLOW all the rules.. its irritating la k.. lol! okai enough of tt... they're playing phantom inside.. my mouth n fingers are itching here.. really.. but nay~ lol!

oh while they were practising.. i was watching... INUYASHA!!! (ouch they just went out of tune..) the movie!! yay!! super sweet!! i'm sobbing already! lol okai not tt bad but yea... i gotta say inuyasha n kagome are just so cute.. they need one another yet when they're face to face all they do is fight! lol!! okai so i am confused here actually.. i tot kikyo is dead??? n i tot sango's li'lle bro is dead too??? okai... i need some catching up to do~~ lol!
(u know when they say people tends to read or watch things that are missing from their life? i alwaes wondered why the heck do i watch so much of a drama these daes n i think i found the ans! LOL! okai okai okai i dont mean tt.. =p okai so my sins are 40% envy so i suppose i gotta agree with tt... =p)
sigh.. i think tml i have to go back do project again.. not tt i mind.. and i dun think ANYONE will ever mind.. he'll be glad perhaps.. a chance for him to rest.. sigh... wadever... luckily i left my shoe in the lab.. otherwise i hafta wear shoe everydae! its bad for my foot.. LOL!

she told the story ... 21:13