Midnight Silhouette

Saturday, May 07, 2005

sometimes i wonder~~~ just how dumb can i get la seriously?? if i had known.. i WOULDNT even think of staying.. n tt blo*dy idiot who didnt want to stay is enjoying *itself* instead... basket la.. seriously never feels so pissed at myself.. even the bathe din help.. haiz~

i dunno la... i know its dumb to get irritated BUT I AM!! and hey if u think i am unreasonable TOO BAD! ARGH!!!!!!! pek chek!!! i am tt pissed to the extent that i can just start crying on this spot!!!!!!

i should have just went home la k.. then i WOULDNT have to feel LEFT OUT! at least at home i can game and wadever even if i am alone! here i got friends but I NEVER EVER EVER FELT SO LEFT OUT BEFORE!!!! and i just hate it when they whispers things to one another.. HELLO??? *KNOCK KNOCK* i dunno la.. i just felt so insulted.. then again mayb its just me.. i suddenly felt non-existent... ARGH!!!! i'm his bloody *cough* girlfriend! *cough*.....

KESEL!!!!! i dunno la.. clarinets practising i can only understand.. but them too? i hate myself for not having the lips endurance and the patience too la k... I HATE IT! and yet i dunno why all my previous BFs are such a ladies men too... ARGH!!!! sometimes really.. i had enough of it.. but i can never convey it out can i? i cannot start screaming out of nowhere can i????

even tho i gotta say i did la just now at the bathroom.. lol! was screaming my head off with beat lending the listening ears.. lol! (thank u bek sorrie gotta drag u off ur sectionals like tt)...

and to think playing 2 straight days and my teeth starts hurting liao.. my lips are worn out like hell la.. diaphram all painful too..(mayb coz of the cushion also ba...) but really la... i cannot take it... mayb i should just run out to the dorm eh? hmmm.. good idea.. then i wont feel so left out i wont feel so.... pissed? but its so warm up there! lol.. for all i know i might burst even more instead.. hahahaha

okai la i shall just stay here at the club house la.. after all now i'm all by myself.. at least i gotta regain my composure before they came back.. :) khekhekhe allright!!!! project time! muahahahaha

*to them* (if they happen to read it..)
.. no no no.. please carry on hanging around him.. forgive me for feeling this way for some reason i just can't control it.. sometimes i felt insulted by things tt i know u guys dont mean it but yea... i see things through a different eyes... wadever.. sorry just carry on doing things the way u guys do...i will forget all this stupid nonsense in a second or two..

she told the story ... 21:38