Midnight Silhouette

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

i'm sad... very very sad.... haiz~~

well... wake up unbelievable early todae... coz need to reach school as they said.. 12 30... i woke up 10 coz i wanted to wash my hair first...n i did.. when i reached.. michael said that the guy wont be around until about 3.. so he might need us to stay till 6.. i was like o okai 6 only can lah.... so since it was about 1 and we have 2 hours of nothingness... michael asked us to claen our cabinet... while cleaning i was planning the star wars outing with beatrice.. decided since she cant make it in the afternoon.. then we shall go in the morning.. and for han's convenience.. we decided to go to JP...

once done cleaning since there's still an hour.. went to see jona.. jona made a list of was we can and should do and after tt we went to see mr forday...

that's that.. rushed back to michael's lab.. only to find the idiot is not there yet.. so we wait n wait n wait.. michael himself even tho he has so much to do was getting bored and decided to call da freddy guy.. and he said... 4 45 he'll be here... so i ask michael.. wad time will we end sia? michael shrugged and say.. 8 and tt also mayb have to come back tml(true enough)... i told han then that i cant meet him at 6 since i'll end at 8...

freddy came and off to work we go.. and tired i am.. mentally physically.. having not enough sleep.. having my *monthly* thingy i was just so so so tired.. my eyes hurts and yet we have to get this gadgets up....

the reason freddy was late was tt he couldnt find the perfect part for MY GRP'S gadget.. so he ended up travelling around singapore since morning...

as if my stress level is not high enough han made noise.. saying its my own fault tt i am late in meeting him.. i dunno la. i tried so much to make him understand but he just insist that i have the mouth to say i have another appointment and have the legs to walk off the lab... but i told michael n mr forday tt i'll be free for the day already!! and this is not some basketball court la.. when he himself can walk off while the rest is still playing he decided to stay and enjoy the game longer n make me wait without even TELLING ME he'll be late right? so wad wrong did i do? this is a project and i am obliged to complete it.. i am obliged to stay and finish wadever they set out for me for the day! and i already told him that i'll end late hours before hand la!!!! i dunno la!!! i do have the mouth i do have the legs I DONT HAVE THE RIGHT! and its not like i WANT to stay in tt tiring hell.. i dont have the right to object.. and believe me everybody give freddy the heel for making us wait for so long la...

i am so tired now i cant even shed a tear yet my hearts just crying n screaming... i thought after this hectic day i can still enjoy the warm dinner and have a shoulder i can lie on so i can rest... turn out.. no.. everything is gone...i alwaes complain when he breached his time... bcoz he delays it at his own will... someone force him to stay to play.. someone force him to come to practice.. i leh? help~~ really.. help me~~~~

she told the story ... 21:17