Midnight Silhouette

Thursday, April 28, 2005

-disappointed-
yea.. tts how i'm feeling right now.. utterly disappointed.. these few days.. filled with disappointment towards others... disappointing.. haiz.. oh well.. not like i can help it...oh... if u ever find this entry offending... and actually offended the person whose reading.. well u can leave ur comments in my tag for all i care... trust urself for being "kay po" to read the entry in the first place.. LOL.. oh well.. it is my blog n i know wad i'm blogging.. if u think i'm wrong.. prove it...

anywae.. shall begin with 1 first.. i shall not mention names.. so i'll use their initials or sth to indicate lah... lol~!

there's someone out there that i admires ever so much~ yea.. i admire him for his leadership... his playing... his devotion to the band.. (i suppose)... i tot that there's no other like him and this is once in a while chance to bring the band back to its feet... well he did nicely along with the others in the beginning... now i see wad it means by a person will have 2 faces no matter how u look at him/her........its just a matter of u see it or not..

i am the third party.. i wasnt there to witness it happens.. but when i found out about it.. yea.. disappointmet bites in... i know that people will cover up their mistakes.. sure i know that when someone make mistakes.. who'll admit it if no one knows about their doing....

but i thought not him~ him who can apologise openly to others.. him who can be so open and outward.. did something wrong.. without realising... and the others are covering for him? come on.. i tot he has more guts than that..wad happened to mr gutsy? and hey... that event drove away a very highly good player.. why... i dunno.. its just.. so disappointing... everybody makes mistake.. sure i dun mind he did what he did IF... he had apologised.. but covering it up? it stinks... and hello.. the thing tts involved is a personal belonging costing over thousands.... its like.. a lot is involved? a played gone.. costly personal belonging dented.. its like.... why cover it up? i dunno la.. no wonder han felt like tt... was alwaes wondering why izzit tt he felt strongly for tt person... coz i tot HIM... had admitted the mistakes instead of covering it up... *sigh* somehow i wish someone will stand up for him and tell me hey i'm wrong.. he actualy bla blabla.. but wads the chances of tt? i dun even know if he had realised he made the mistake.. oh boi....

and tell me.. which committee has its welfare becoming its QM or.. welfare cum QM?? thats like... utter rubbish? sure i know he has a lot of commitment.. other than the few times he said he wanna quit.. which in the end he never did..... but its superbly absurd to have welfare officer becoming the QM la k... he might know how to handle the books.. but never the instrument.. or at least i dun think so.. power really does change someone... and seriously i hate that ugly sight.. then again lets be realistic.. there's not many who wouldnt abuse the status given to them.. really.. ugly sight... dunno wad HE is thinkin... get someone else to do it la... Welfare cum QM... no link.............if he's assigned the double job... please reconsider and assign someone else.. if he volunteered for it.. please know ur limitations.... bleah...

another person disappointing me will be... some hateful lousy lout.. i'm thinkin... wad is becoming of guys these daes?? ok guys.. leave out han, xy, my bro.. and all the nice guys la.. bt.. this guys is seriously idiotic.. hey mayb he had regreted his action... APOLOGISE for goodness sake... i wonder wad is so difficult in saying "I'M SORRIE"... basket.. tt difficult meh? made mistake liao still point fingers at others? tts pot calling the kettle black or.. was it kettle calling the pot black... which ever la.. it means the same... i wonder.. he knew he had "sinned" well he admitted in his prayer tt he has "sinned" but nothing changes in real life.. tell me where's the good in tt???

its like a murderer.. murder someone.. at night or sundae go church.. pray ask for forgiveness.. next dae.. he'll be up and running around murdering people.... d'oh...

okai its not tt bad la.. but the scenario is there.. lol! and sheesh... i dunno la.. i'm just ubberly disappointed even tho i kinda expect tt it'll be this way but hello~! not to tt extent... GHAY...

ok ok ok.. its getting too long.. lol~! i shall blog again other time la.. then mayb i can vent out somemore idiotic things.. lol!

she told the story ... 00:08