Thursday, December 09, 2004
okai.. so u said that u hate those people whom cant accept u for who u are..
well i tell u whom i hate..
i hate those people who wears mask when they first meet me...
and then when they found something new to befriend...
they'd discard me.. and then wear a mask infront of me.. and another mask in front of the others..
and then the cycle keeps going round n on n on..
and in the end it becomes everyone has different perception of who the heck u really are...
i told u once...
or maybe sounds more like i asked u once also..
asked u why u changed so much..
and u replied how can u not change when so much happened to u..
and then wad the heck is tt sentence in ur blog huh??
u said that we cant accept u for who u are?
how contradicting..
oh my gosh.. maybe something is wrong with me that i read different things...
u see~?
u see that now??
u see how contradicting u are now??
and u see why people dislike u so much???
maybe ur old friends sticks with u..
well thats good..
but tt sentence.. i can never forgive..
wad?
they are more truthful to u unlike other people??
i ask u...
HOW TRUTHFUL HAVE U BEEN TO US????
what is this abandoning friend when u got a new one act...
scolding people who are innocent when u are in practically bad mood...
accused people of what they havent done...when what they all did was trying to cover u up..
go back to ur old friends when ur new friends are gone..
( true that that shows how good ur old friends are.. but how have u treat them u tell me? )
truthful u said? ya right...
and u are someone who never blames urself for everything that went wrong
all u blame are others..
i think.. u ask and told me once.. or izzit u tagged at ur board..
said that u dont understand why these people hates u or dislikes u so much...
personally and presently.. i dun hate u.. nor do i like u that much...
all u mutter when u are angry are rubbish...
and when u are in a situation where u have nowhere to go.. u accused others...
for one thing...
huang weihan DID disowned manda when he first disowned u as his sister...
but then he thought that if manda.. he still can handle..
after all manda has been his god sista a bit longer...
thats why he decided to let manda be his god sis anywae..
and tell me what the heck did u tell others??
the one who lied was u! am i not wrong?
when pee and others waited for u to go for dinner...
but u told them that u have a lot of things to do..
that u asked them to go on after making them wait..
and then in the end u were out with manda and han..
and that night when manda asked whether u want to eat or not out of good will...
u shouted at her??
ever thought of how it felt??
and when manda and pee shared their different version of the story..
know how they felt?
(speak of being truthful i dare u)
when everything is in a mess between u and fatt..
and u decided to throw ur temper when u are in the band room?
screaming something like...
" if fatt shares everything with xue li why not ask xue li to be his gf? "
have u ever visited xue li's blog?
do u know how fortunate she felt when the u n fatt first a couple?
she cared for u also when no one was around u.. and u scolded her like that??
please loh...
and when u said something like..
" wad am i to him.. he never tell me anything all he go is to manda might as well dont need to tell me anything from the beginning "
why cant u think something like..
hey.. maybe fatt didnt want to talk to me coz i am look so freaky with all my black face..
and that he's scared he'll make me feel worst so i should calm down...
but still in the end all u did was freak out and yea... that doesnt help.. AT ALL
i guess when the rest first saw how bad u might have felt..
they'd help u and still offer u some comfort..
but everyone has their own line dont they?
and it just happen that u crossed that line on everybody else...
and when u are out from trumpet section..
it solely lies on dao wei's decision.. and that's it..
nothing to do with the main comm!
and neither does it has anything to do with kai ling!
and yet u look at ur blog lah... u just start deducing and writing all sort of rubbish..
fine u said that ur blog is a place when u can be most open..
fine.. i dun mind that..
but cant u be open with assurance???
all u typed and all u said are all practical RUBBISH
and when merrill is giving a talk for the section..
who said that they are pointing at u??
and who said that they are pissed at u??
dont be so thick skin will u?
u are just so paranoia that even the fact become up side down
merrill was pissed at all of us and it happens..
and wad? u think he's solely angry with u alone and ended up giving a talk
to the whole section?
oh please... when he said he's unhappy with u he'll just drag u to one side
and start talking to u ALONE
*goodness sake*
and when manda said that
every year one who dont have a student card better not go out at night..
she's not pinpointing at u either!!!
she's telling the whole band!
plus the fact that i too wanted to go out but i didnt have mine with me..
she is trying to save u and merrill some trouble in case the guards get cocky again
coz me n manda n han n pee n a few more experienced that before!
and manda got scolded the last time she did by our previous president..
giving a warning and wad?? u said she is discriminating u??
PARANOID!!!!
*sheesh*
when u first came to my life..
i hated u for god knows how much..
but i thought later on..
hey..
she's aint so bad..
maybe i can really be real friends with her..
true that right now i am listening mostly to one party's story..
but seriously... ur blog are contradicting enough as it is..
and u have finally discarded ur mask..
and all we see is a mirror face who just dont want itself to get blamed..
thats why everything that went wrong just gets reflected and we get blamed..
oh wadever...
shouldnt have visited ur new blog..
was thinking on how are u fairing since its been a few daes since i last msg u..
but now i am seriously pissed again...
i shall stop finding trouble for my self as it'll shorten my life span
good night guys
she told
the story ...
23:26
