Thursday, December 23, 2004
thats what i am i guess...
had a HUGE quarell with han this afternoon..
i guess its simply EXPLOSIVE...
with handphone, green tea, wallet, necklace n a pair of earrings
flung out of han's hand....
leaving one injured physically.. and one mentally wounded..
.... sounds like.. some lame news report.....
am glad the phone didnt decide to breakdown the moment it was flung..
the back upper part dropped off tho...
and the wallet hit my arm..
plus the earrings lost its backside....
and my 3/4 eaten prata.. plus my shirt n jean was soaked in green tea that he splashed at me...
*sobz* my prata.....
okai la.. most of it is my fault.... affirmative...
and it was my fault to have started it...
no biggie actually.. all caused by a sectional...+ christmas + my unfulfilled wish.. + my stupid harsh mouth... + my ego n pride = A HUGE GIGANTIC BOMB(han's limit) EXPLOSION
sigh.... made me think n think n think........
should i end this relationship after all?
before it got worst?
before it was too late to stop anything at all...
before we got too attached to one another...?
but i gotta admit...i AM already attached....
couldnt believe tt i teared when i was only writting an sms...
sorry quan.. must've scared u so much...
han told me that he couldnt afford to lost me..
can i?
can i really handle it had i decided to just end everything that moment..
that second...
i dunno...
but now i dread the thought...
its just like alicia key's song... if i aint got u.. ( gonna put up the lyrics)
i wish i can be as strong as christian n satine.... in moulin rouge...
come what may....
seriously.. come what may... tt is wad my heart n brain says..
but when the pressure comes in.... even tho i am feelin that way....
it gave in... come what may.... how i wish..
there really is a strong bond love like tt...
how i wish... fate wouldnt separate us... just becoz of our age difference...
n horoscopes.....
sigh.....
she told
the story ...
23:54
