Midnight Silhouette

Monday, August 09, 2004

i feel so sad.. just so torn.. i feel i've been cheated again.....

i was suppose to meet han in the band room.. i couldnt wake up... he didnt wake me up... so meet him for lunch.. was late for lunch but he come even later... asked him wad took him so long.. izzit bcoz someone was with him.. he said no..... i trusted him.. i trusted him when i know he must've been with some one...

but.. turn out.. he was with his god sis.. he was with her for the whole morning.. they were in the band room together.. she sounds happy and i dunno if he's even feelin the guilt
tell me.. how to trust him? tell me.. how can i not feel sad.. i ask him.. he still was trying to avoid it... the wound.. was deep.. it deepened.. now? i think my heart really break le.... it hurts alot.....
damn it hurts.. i ask him why he lie to me.. he gets angry.. he was like asking me why? i never lie to him before meh and wadever shit..............................

its just broken again............ it hurts......... and this time.. i didnt drop a tear.. been crying for 3 consecutive daes............................................ 3 consecutive nights....................................................

she told the story ... 23:31